Does he love me?
Maybe he does. Maybe he doesn't anymore.
Does he care? Maybe not. Maybe never.
But he said he did n he will,
Rem the day I was leaninging in your arms?
Will he come around? He might, but I don't think so.
But why not? He should. Shouldn't he?
Why doesnt she take my call? Or reply to my msgs?
Doesn't she see that I need her?
Just to unburden myself n talk abt the day.
You said you'd call but you didn't.
Can I call you now?
Do I look alright? Am I getting too fat?
Is my arse sticking out or is it my paunch?
Should I straighten my hair?
But why is she giving me that look?!
Am I looking weird? Or am I intimidating her?
Maybe Im beta, in the way I dress, walk, talk n laugh!
Maybe its the attention I get!
But why aren't you talking to me?
Was it me? Did I do something wrong?
But maybe its just you and not me.
Whatever it is, guess what? I don't give a fuck.
I'm going to be me.
You either take it or leave it.
I dont care.
Okies...Here's the latest abt me (Sandy, Mehak n Ricky already know abt it), I had a "stupid" accident on Sunday night and hurt my left knee and left elbow but im getting better. Tried relaxing on Monday but the thought of huge deductions on my salary n of my impending leaves, I went to work today. Was alright for most of the day except when I bumped my other feet on the wounded knee! It hurt so bad that I started crying...I know, I know Im a cry baby. With the wounds I cant wear anything else but loose clothings so I am sticking to wearing Salwar Kurtas. For one who doesnt look for too many plausible reasons I went ahead n bought myself some kurtas, a top n a skirt! I feel good but my knee hurts what with all the exertion! But I guess no pain, no gain. And guess what? I went to withdraw some cash and saw that I had got my arrears frm work! Shoes...here I come! :-D Anyway its late, I gotta hit the sack. Take care people.