Lovefool

Sometimes I wonder if Im a hopeless fool? Yes, I am. But I'd rather be the hopeless fool than the bimbo you want me to be. And after everything, its ironical and pathetic. Yeah, pathetic as much for you as it is for me. Ironical because you never loved me.
And I still miss you...
I hate the way you have taken over me and my life. Im not saying I dont have a life without you. I love my life but its so difficult not to miss your presence when im reading a book curled up under the blanket, the messages, the drives, the silly jokes. Remember you singing to/with me? :-) And your James Bond pose in your Raybans? How can I forget all the hugs and the love and the warmth and the feeling of being sheltered by you? Theres never a day when I dont think about you with affection and misgiving. And each time I mourn your going away the tears never seem to stop. And every time I could cry like its the first. I also remember and laugh at the funny times and silly jokes. The tears alternate with laughter and smiles and most of all an abysmal sense of emptiness, of loneliness and longing.

And I still miss you...