Monday, December 11, 2006

Lovefool

Sometimes I wonder if Im a hopeless fool? Yes, I am. But I'd rather be the hopeless fool than the bimbo you want me to be. And after everything, its ironical and pathetic. Yeah, pathetic as much for you as it is for me. Ironical because you never loved me.
And I still miss you...
I hate the way you have taken over me and my life. Im not saying I dont have a life without you. I love my life but its so difficult not to miss your presence when im reading a book curled up under the blanket, the messages, the drives, the silly jokes. Remember you singing to/with me? :-) And your James Bond pose in your Raybans? How can I forget all the hugs and the love and the warmth and the feeling of being sheltered by you? Theres never a day when I dont think about you with affection and misgiving. And each time I mourn your going away the tears never seem to stop. And every time I could cry like its the first. I also remember and laugh at the funny times and silly jokes. The tears alternate with laughter and smiles and most of all an abysmal sense of emptiness, of loneliness and longing.
And I still miss you...

11 comments:

She'll said...
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Marlee said...

Well if u didnt wera rayban and go for drives then its obvious im not talking abt you. I dont even know who u are nor care to know.

Mehak said...

We meet to set Memories
And
Depart to remember them


....easy for me to say..err type....but will never understand what you feel...you take care Lovefool

She'll said...

'Utopia' is better left alone lest it ceases to be so.
Once a memory always a memory.

She'll said...

And it is good to know 'raybans' and 'drives' are calm waters.
Turbid waters have a way of leaving unwanted debris.
Be well!
The Lord takes care of His own.
Ciao!

Mehak said...

Marlee,there??? we left msgs at the same time...7:53

Marlee said...

hey Mehak...yup im here...internet acting up :-(

Ricky said...

Very personal post. I hope you are fine. Take care!!

Ivan said...

Another one? Well mate, it seems you have some extra baggage inside.
Life is very short; just a collection of moments. If you want my suggestion let the memories be sweet but memories let them be.Companionship can be fulfilling but it is not indispensable.
There cannot be enough tears in this world to wash away the sparkle and a twinkle off those eyes.
There is a world to be explored out there. Set out and you will realise there is so much and yet so little time...What a pity...
But, I would not be one for immortality mate. I leave that to others.;-)
Sing... sing... till your spirit soars...Freedom!!!

Ivan said...

So... mate, throw that toothbrush and those clothes into the knapsack and get out there.
Time to hit the road! What say you? ;-)
Isn't it a pity that you seldom get the whole package in one person. Hahahaha... makes you feel good to realise that no one is perfect eh!?!
Ivan The Terrible wishes you a terribly good Christmas full of adventure and new horizons.New worlds to conquer! Aye! Avast! Ye swabs!To the ropes! To the ropes!

sanguine said...

came via mehak's blog .. take care of urself hon .. let time heal the wound .. the pain will go away with time .. it always does .