Monday, September 24, 2007

Musical Nostalgia

I have always associated music with memories. There are some songs that I love listening to and would love to listen to all the time so that I remember the good times I had with my friends but I usually don't. I know, totally contradictory. Listening to them only makes me sad and depressed! I particularly don't listen to music that reminds me of my last days in Army School. It makes me miss my school, friends, care-free days, parents and Guwahati. Its very irritating when I get to listen to old songs when I'm out because I consciously try to stay away from them. Songs like Salaam Namaste's "My dil goes Hmmmm" reminds me of Pete and funny times with him or Westlife's "Coast to Coast" and my first boyfriend and our first date! :-D I was "busy" cleaning my Music folder this weekend and came across some songs I listened to more than 2 years ago. I generally stop myself from listening to these because more often than not, I end up shedding some tears and sighing alone. Not a good experience :( Anyway, I listened to some of those songs today and so many memories and emotions came at the same time - a smile, a lump of emotion in my throat and a tear as well.

I wish some things, people and time didn't become memories. Even as everyday becomes tomorrow's memories I still dispair and wish time could be frozen and relived again and again. Wishful thinking at its height...

I wonder where the people filling up my memories are now? If they're as happy as they seemed years ago? Wonder if they ever think back of those times and if its with a smile and a longing?

4 comments:

Ricky said...

Old pictures have the same effect on me. It always remind me of either someone associated with the picture or some place that I had a good time or some random memory that is triggered by the same.

Oh, so you are an Army school pass out too?? Everyday I learn something about you :P Aren't we (we here means me) army people cool :D

I always think back to the old times with a smile... :-)

Marlee said...

I can never think of old times with a smile...its has to be with a dull ache in the heart...

Yes, Yes, my last 1 and half years of School days was spent in Amry School, Guwahati...which is again, filled so many pleasant memories

:)

I stay away frm old photos as well...I think im the perfect example of an escapist! :-O

d_grail said...

I have the problem with smells....perfumes and colognes i associate with people, even places... days after i leave home my clothes and sheets smell of home....some times some-one will smell like an old friend..horrible :(

Pete said...

caller tunes and your dad insulting you for having bolloywood tunes for when people ring you... i loved them :)