Far Away

Nickelback's Far Away - best antidote to further miss someone!

This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know,
you know, you know

That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore
On my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
'Cause you know,
you know, you know

So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go

Missing the best friend :(

Bloggie, here I am.

Hey Bloggie, I'm back. I have neglected you for long, haven't I? Oh well, you'd beta get used to it. I'm so uninspired.

Anyway, what have I been busy with lately? Honestly? Nothing, except for spending a lot of time with friends, attending a wedding and going for a trip from work. (That reminds me I must Blog abt the trip some time soon.)

Talking about this wedding I attended - it was like a blast from the past. It was a family friend cum ex teacher's daughter's wedding. I met so many teachers after more than 8 years. A long time indeed. Time takes it toll on everyone. I thought many had aged and some teachers told me I had put on weight (**I have to loose some weight**). It was nice to meet these teachers and have them speak to you like an adult. There was no more that teacher-student equation or awkwardness. I was dressed in my traditional attire, which is the Mekhela Sador and I thought I looked gorgeous. But guess what the Best Friend had to say? You'll never guess :-/ He said I looked Goddess Saraswati. What?!! That was my reaction as well with jaws dropped ofcourse. I am supposed to take it as a compliment. I didn't know whether to complain or shake my head in dispair. Anyway most of you will see some of these pics in my Facebook account and you can decide for yourselves if I indeed looked like the said Goddess.

Here's some more weird idiosyncrasies of the Best Friend because of whom life seems to be a happier place- I was showing him my latest purchases from a shopping trip and this is what he had to say abt one of them. "This is a very long skirt." I had to explain that it wasn't a long skirt but an off shoulder dress. LOL! Sounds cute, doesn't he? He is :-D

Feeling good with flowers

Up close and personal! (Have a closer look and check out the bees). As morbid as it is but I wonder whose dead body would this wreath shroud over. Brrr.

My Valentine flowers which I got a week later. The wait was worth it :-D

Fluidity

Fluidity of thought
Over time
Things seen and done
People cherished and forgotten
Not forgiven
Forgiveness and healing
Redemption and peace
More fluidity of thought?

A recent conversation

Has this happened with you where you could never predict something like that to come up in a conversation? Like some stuff which probably is spoken only between very close friends and next thing you know, someone you hardly know asks you the same without even batting an eyelid? Yes, thats exactly what happened to me the other day. And to top it all, that person was one of my best friend's niece which technically makes me her Aunt as well though she is a IIIrd year College kid!!!

Anyway here is a snippet of the conversation:
Niece: The last time I met you with my Aunt you guys were talking about some weird boy friend of yours. (Note: This meeting was like 2 yrs ago)
Me (Smiling) : Yup, the weird one is history now.
Niece: So did you date anyone after that?
Me: Yup, someone who eventually broke my heart and I have been happily single for more than a year. (With a satisfied smile)
Niece (With a look of awe): Wow. And sex?!
Me (With jaws dropped): What about sex?
Niece: So how do you manage without it?
Me (I was about to pass out with the shock): It has never been an option!
Looking back I can only have a good laugh now.

Oh well, life doesn't seem to stop with her surprises!

Retrospection

After all the frenzy over Prison Break I & II and the "delectable" Michael Scoffield, I've realised
had it not been for his glamourised role he'd have been just another normal (not drool worthy) looking person. There goes one of my crushes.

One year of Blogging

The Blog's first birthday came and went by without any event. I guess I didn't write about it only because I was too busy with work and College. Oh well, Belated Happy 1st Birtjday to my Blog! :-D
It's been one eventful year in the Blog apart from some dormant phases. This is where I have given vent about almost everything that gets my goat. From an unpleasant breakup to my cooking experiments to travelling and photographs, this is where it's recorded. I thought I was addicted to Blogging but with the present scenario of no time at all, I'd like to think I'm addicted to Blogging! The best part about Blogging is how I am to have made some very good Blog pals - Mehak , Ricky and Lalit.
These guys aren't only my Blog pals but Orkut, Facebook as well as phone pals! They have been there just a phone call away - even to answer if earthworms had 13 or 15 hearts(LOL). This is probably the rare occasion I might admit but I love the fact I'm friends with you guys! :-)
Here's to more Blogging and eventful friendships!

:-)

Guys, how does one add a hyper link? I tried but it doesn't show! Help!

No more birthday blues!

Oh well, so much for making another birthday such a big deal. I'm alright now. Ok with the fact that I'm 24! I didn't quite plan out anything for the "day". The best friend and some of my neighbours were there to celebrate by cutting a cake and some food. Nice and simple. I also got gifts from the most unexpected places which was kinda sweet! :) Have uploaded some pics of the birthday.
Flowers from Pete:

Flowers from Bachchu and Ronmi:

The YUM bday cake from Bachchu and Ronmi:

All in all, a good birthday and a new year with some fun stuff in store!

Musical Nostalgia

I have always associated music with memories. There are some songs that I love listening to and would love to listen to all the time so that I remember the good times I had with my friends but I usually don't. I know, totally contradictory. Listening to them only makes me sad and depressed! I particularly don't listen to music that reminds me of my last days in Army School. It makes me miss my school, friends, care-free days, parents and Guwahati. Its very irritating when I get to listen to old songs when I'm out because I consciously try to stay away from them. Songs like Salaam Namaste's "My dil goes Hmmmm" reminds me of Pete and funny times with him or Westlife's "Coast to Coast" and my first boyfriend and our first date! :-D I was "busy" cleaning my Music folder this weekend and came across some songs I listened to more than 2 years ago. I generally stop myself from listening to these because more often than not, I end up shedding some tears and sighing alone. Not a good experience :( Anyway, I listened to some of those songs today and so many memories and emotions came at the same time - a smile, a lump of emotion in my throat and a tear as well.

I wish some things, people and time didn't become memories. Even as everyday becomes tomorrow's memories I still dispair and wish time could be frozen and relived again and again. Wishful thinking at its height...

I wonder where the people filling up my memories are now? If they're as happy as they seemed years ago? Wonder if they ever think back of those times and if its with a smile and a longing?

A look alike? Freaky!

I have something so freaky to write about today...Ok, on second thoughts, its not so freaky...but...anyway here it is...College is fun...attending classes, hanging around etc. But I haven't actually gone out of my way to make new friends in my Class. Thats the way I am...I hate making an effort for anything. The friends I made in the first few days are the ones I'm comfortable with. But then today everyone from Class were together and I suddenly saw this chap frm Class in a new light/angle(!) He resembles my ex 8-O Even his expressions and the way he walks (in a nonchalant way). No, it isn't my imagination. Its just weird. I'm wondering what I'd do to the look alike if I walked into class tipsy...What do you guys think? ;) I was thinking more in the lines of a kick or a punch! :-P

How's the week coming along people? Just 2 more days and the weekend's here. Payday? 11 more days. I can count the days in my fingers now! Yay! Yes, I live for Paydays! :-D

Take care people!

Connected once again!

Much to my chagrin my net connection was down for the past 6 days. Had to check my mails either at work or the net cafes. I hated using both. My vivid imagination would make me wonder if the last person who used the comp had clean hands or not or wonder what kinda weird stuff had he touched! :-/

Celebrated my dearest friend's birthday yesterday even though we didn't plan to celebrate it together on the same day. But luckily I got off work early and we made it on time to give the last order at this late night restaurant. We made do with a dark chocolate with orange desert as the cake and a drink hot chocolate. Made a rucous singing him the Happy Birthday song. Fun :-)

Flirting or attempts made by men to flirt with me makes me smile and shake my head and think that all men are so similar. Its the same routine work - smile, look at the other person surreptiously, make a sarcastic comment and try to sound intelligent...Sigh...Yawn...But its time I moved on and now I'm game ;-)Take care people!

Birthday Wishes...

Nupur,
You and Me
Cheese and Chalk
Bhija Mekuri and Bengi
Laughter and Tears
Best friend and Worst critique.

Happy Birthday to one of the bestest things that could happen to me!

Lotsa love n hugs,
Me

Another to the collection

The other day I was out looking for new pair of Kohlapuris when I tried these on. They didn't look too bad and I wonder why I was never taken into them when they first hit the market some 3 yrs ago? Maybe coz every body seemed to be in one! Anyway, I'm very happy with my purchase...Hang on, theres better to come...it cost me only Rs 110...now that, my dear friends, is a Steal! :-D And the ghoongroo makes me feel so pseudo feminine (in the nice way.) Anyway, heres to a start of another hectic week where I hardly get to sleep, all thanks to me talking some really "wise" decisions. But I guess I'd have to stick to them for sometime. Adding on to my sleepless problem is one of my very good friend, whom I consider my "buddy buddy" friend who decides to talk abt the "relationship" we are having and abt him and me and where the relationship is going. Thankfully a phone call from the Best Friend saved the embarrassing moment! Its so discomforting now...where we would only msg for work or dumb forwards, he msgs me, asking me how my day is going all the time and so many other weird stuff that "buddy buddy" friends never do. Argh...its so weird and irritating. Simply coz I don't want to spoil what we have and I am so not ready for a relationship...Yeah, yeah, I'm the quintessential anti man! :-I Lets see what happens next. Keep me in your prayers people!

Off to sleep and then classes...take care and have a good week! Oh, and its a holiday on Wednesday...Yippieeee! What plans? No prizes for guessing what I'd be doing - I'll be sleeping.

Ciao.

Back after a hiatus

Thats right. Im back after a long hiatus. I stopped opening my Blog page or even visiting/commenting in the Blogs I regularly visit. I know it seems very selfish on my part when I have some of my Blog friends have been so consistently encouraging me to Blog etc. Thanks guys :)

Classes in the Univ have started. Quite like it to be back listening to lectures. Still have to get to know people around though. The ones I know are, um, ok. One of them was very impressed that the Professor used a word like "SCANDALOUS." What? Yeah, that was my reaction as well. According to this guy people have stopped using such "good" words and they can now only be found in Literature. I was wondering if I would like to be bitchy and mean and make an ass of him or just be not bothered? I let him off. I know, I can be kind "sometimes."
One of the professors in the other hand, persistently uses Hinglish. I do feel bad for the foreign classmates who look so lost when he cracks a funny joke in Hindi.
Guess im going to take some time getting used to being a student once again.

Sometime last week my favourite(st) teacher who's also become a friend asked me about the 'sullen young man' she had met last year. I told him he was history and was she glad. So am I. Yes, I am getting on and much happier now and ofcourse, grateful with what I have :)

Off late I have become addicted to Ugly Betty and That 70's Show. Have been downloading them from the Net :-D Boy, am I pleased with my collection! What are you guys watching on TV? Anything good that I can download? ;-)

Take care people.

Of Proposals, Vokda Golgappas n Marriages...

Just when you think life couldn't get more boring with an injured knee, impending entrances and the heat, I got a proposal. Not just any proposal, this person has proposed to me thrice before and each time I've said no. Why would I do that despite the fact that he's gorgeous, tall n nice, if not anything else? I dont know. Maybe coz I still think I love someone else, just not ready to get into a relationship or simply coz I love reveling in my Single status. Anyway so this guy calls me the other day (since we're acquaintances, we catch up on and off) and starts abt how he misses me loads. (Wow! after all these months of not seeing each other?) And says he knew why I said no to him before. His reason-that my persception of him being a Playboy was right but he says he's changed. Here I was loosing my patience, what with my bad knee and having to get up early for work the next day.(Now I know how my ex feels when I call him all senti n drunk! Apologies.) Anyway if all that wasn't enough this guy had to add something like this-"Im sure you'll love me now. I have been working out and I have abs, a flat tummy and biceps. I'm sexy!" Yay! Good for you but I'm just not interested in Body Building! And wat is it, is he like Dumb, Dumber, Dumbest?! Despite telling him abt the accident he wanted to catch up with me this Saturday. Whatever. I was talking to Sandy abt it and Sandy thought I loved every bit of this attention but I didn't! Not when its coming frm the wrong person! Argh! Enough of messed up proposals!

Anyway u guys want to try out something diff? Try Golgappa with Vodka-its great! Not too sure if they serve it anywhere else but I had it in Punjabi by Nature.

Pete's been asking me why I havent written anything abt the Ash-Abhi wedding or why I didnt tell him Ash was getting married. Pete, knowing how much you adore Ash I thought I'd break the news gently :-D And what do I think of the wedding? She's such a kidnapper, Abhi's too young and cool for her.

Anyway I'd better publish this before any other glitches happen. I've had redo it twice! Doesn't Blogger recognise Cont Z button?! I'm off for today. Hoping you guys have a great week ahead!

Some pics of my attempted cooking here: http://www.flickr.com/photos/marlees/

Gross.

Reaction by a Colleague on the Virginia Tech Uni massacre was to smirk and say, "Teng, teng, teng"...Ugh...I guess if he was in there he'd not have the time or thoughts to react in this insensitive behaviour :-I

Its weird to know that we don't know whats going to happen to any of us and quietly leave it to God.

Take care people.