Winters arrived

Winters are here...the cold is here and I'm so not happy. If there is one season I dislike, it has to be the Winters! Delhi winters even more. The constant cold numbing my fingers, ears and nose for two months, argh! I can't for the love of god imagine how do people manage living in places with snow for most of the year?! (Like Ricky!!!)
Anyhow, the Blowers been brought down and so have the Winter clothes including mufflers, gloves and caps. I have started wearing socks all day long and I can't even manage sleeping at night without my gloves on. For all this inconvenience I had to go shopping (Ofcourse) :-D Anyway picked up a pair of cool pair of Converse for everyday wear. As you can see below, I'm posing with them!My Dad refused to blow up $150 for a pair of Boots from abroad so I had to make do (not that I had any other choice) with one purchased from South Ext. I loooove them.

How are you guys preparing for the Winters? (I know Ricky's busy Winter shopping as well)

Thats all for now, have to get back to the books and the warm Blanket. Take care people.

Withdrawal Symptoms

I was just thinking what I missed the most from my last relationship and oddly, I missed the comfortable silences. The silence which I thought spoke volumes. I miss the moment when I could just snuggle and feel safe and warm. I haven't felt that in months. But why am I feeling like this now? Why am I letting myself think of the past which is so obviously irrevocable?

For the past one week I have been dreading the coming days. I have a good reason, I'm going to become older by another year. Not something pleasant to look forward to. Until I was 21 I loved all my birthdays, particularly the gifts and party with friends. But now its like a date which only makes me older and none the more wiser. Its like now I'm racing with time to make something out of life. For the past 2 years its been the same; I sulk and shy away from my close friends and company. Last year one of my closest friends had to force herself to my place and wish me. This year too I'd love to run away to be with myself but I have College to attend. Thankfully I have taken leave from work for that day. I think the Best Friend wants to do something for my birthday but I have forewarned him of my plans. Lets see what happens this time around :-|

As frustrating as it is to my friends and me I still want to be alone this time too.

Sigh...

Listening to James Blunt's "You're Beautiful" and hating him for bringing a rush of bittersweet memories :'(

Musical Nostalgia

I have always associated music with memories. There are some songs that I love listening to and would love to listen to all the time so that I remember the good times I had with my friends but I usually don't. I know, totally contradictory. Listening to them only makes me sad and depressed! I particularly don't listen to music that reminds me of my last days in Army School. It makes me miss my school, friends, care-free days, parents and Guwahati. Its very irritating when I get to listen to old songs when I'm out because I consciously try to stay away from them. Songs like Salaam Namaste's "My dil goes Hmmmm" reminds me of Pete and funny times with him or Westlife's "Coast to Coast" and my first boyfriend and our first date! :-D I was "busy" cleaning my Music folder this weekend and came across some songs I listened to more than 2 years ago. I generally stop myself from listening to these because more often than not, I end up shedding some tears and sighing alone. Not a good experience :( Anyway, I listened to some of those songs today and so many memories and emotions came at the same time - a smile, a lump of emotion in my throat and a tear as well.

I wish some things, people and time didn't become memories. Even as everyday becomes tomorrow's memories I still dispair and wish time could be frozen and relived again and again. Wishful thinking at its height...

I wonder where the people filling up my memories are now? If they're as happy as they seemed years ago? Wonder if they ever think back of those times and if its with a smile and a longing?

A look alike? Freaky!

I have something so freaky to write about today...Ok, on second thoughts, its not so freaky...but...anyway here it is...College is fun...attending classes, hanging around etc. But I haven't actually gone out of my way to make new friends in my Class. Thats the way I am...I hate making an effort for anything. The friends I made in the first few days are the ones I'm comfortable with. But then today everyone from Class were together and I suddenly saw this chap frm Class in a new light/angle(!) He resembles my ex 8-O Even his expressions and the way he walks (in a nonchalant way). No, it isn't my imagination. Its just weird. I'm wondering what I'd do to the look alike if I walked into class tipsy...What do you guys think? ;) I was thinking more in the lines of a kick or a punch! :-P

How's the week coming along people? Just 2 more days and the weekend's here. Payday? 11 more days. I can count the days in my fingers now! Yay! Yes, I live for Paydays! :-D

Take care people!

Another time, some place else? No way!

A start of another week with a holiday in between! What more can I ask? :-D
The past few days have just passed by with so many things happening-work, college, people. I feel like I'm in a constant Whirlpool! But then again, its only once we're young and working our asses off! I should stop complaining.

Happy days rather, gloating days are here for me. Why? I had gone out Jeans shopping last weekend with some amount of trepidition. I was worried that I'd have to ask the sales person to give me a waist size 30" :-O But, then guess what? I fit into a size 28" quite fine. That, despite the paunch which makes me look very pregnant, is an achievement! YAY, to me & low waist jeans! :-D

Well, here's something that I came across when I'd gone out for dinner the day.On that note, take care people. Have fun receiving rakhi's and gifts (!) tomorrow!
:-)

Another to the collection

The other day I was out looking for new pair of Kohlapuris when I tried these on. They didn't look too bad and I wonder why I was never taken into them when they first hit the market some 3 yrs ago? Maybe coz every body seemed to be in one! Anyway, I'm very happy with my purchase...Hang on, theres better to come...it cost me only Rs 110...now that, my dear friends, is a Steal! :-D And the ghoongroo makes me feel so pseudo feminine (in the nice way.) Anyway, heres to a start of another hectic week where I hardly get to sleep, all thanks to me talking some really "wise" decisions. But I guess I'd have to stick to them for sometime. Adding on to my sleepless problem is one of my very good friend, whom I consider my "buddy buddy" friend who decides to talk abt the "relationship" we are having and abt him and me and where the relationship is going. Thankfully a phone call from the Best Friend saved the embarrassing moment! Its so discomforting now...where we would only msg for work or dumb forwards, he msgs me, asking me how my day is going all the time and so many other weird stuff that "buddy buddy" friends never do. Argh...its so weird and irritating. Simply coz I don't want to spoil what we have and I am so not ready for a relationship...Yeah, yeah, I'm the quintessential anti man! :-I Lets see what happens next. Keep me in your prayers people!

Off to sleep and then classes...take care and have a good week! Oh, and its a holiday on Wednesday...Yippieeee! What plans? No prizes for guessing what I'd be doing - I'll be sleeping.

Ciao.

Sigh...

Wish I could drift away on one of these...The heat is killing and all I can do is whine about it!

Place: Gobardhan, Guwahati
January, 2007

Its all about phases, my friend.

*Loads happening at the moment, from subsidary exams to entrances. And they arent going great. I studied an entire night for a subsidary only to reach the exam centre and be told that the Univ didnt send the paper. I'll know when the exam will happen next week. Fingers crossed. All I can do is despair and wait for the "exam/entrance" phase to go.

*Many familiar people are leaving for different reasons. These are people with whom I made so many pleasant memories. Now I might never meet them again. Its sad.

*Old friends making STD/ISD calls just to find out how I am makes me feel special and SMILE.

*Making plans of meeting up with friends I havent seen in "some" time excites me at the moment. Especially since I know that its going to happen very soon!

*Some things can never get better, they can only get worse. I have to stop begging Him to be just a friend. But I can't stop myself. Its a horrible feeling and phase.

*I wish getting fat was a temporary phase. Oh well, Im resigning myself to my not-so-temporary "fatness" phase.

*Im going through the "Superwoman" phase. Why? I flew all over town rescuing my non Delhite frm the airport and keeping him safe until he boared his next flight. Yay! to me.

*Im totally addicted to "Prison Break". I'm told its just been released in India but guess wat? I have both Season I and II...haha...Its should go without saying Wentworth (Drooooool) Miller is my latest crush :-D

Some of my fav. earrings. Tell me which one/s did u like best? My fav.? I loooooove them all :-)
Untill my exam/entrances phase gets over, take care people!